Trust Your Instincts....Like A Chameleon...

I have always been a pretty good judge of character. I guess throughout my life I have let other people pull me in places I did not really want to be or feel comfortable. Over the last few days I have watched my family and listened closely to how we all adjust to one another. Really I think its all about Adjusting, It made me think of a chameleon. I have noticed a lot of things lately, as I have been trying to slow down my life before it passes by. I have noticed that people act different ways when put in different situations. Like a chameleon would change colors. I guess what I am trying to get across is we all try to fit in to our surroundings whether they be right for us or not. We evolve into what we have or What we have been taught. If you hear a bunch of ladies, talking about the weather, you will chime in and say a piece about the weather, so that you can feel accepted into the conversation, not because you want to know what the weather may be, but because you don't want to stand alone. I realized today, I seem to be doing this a lot. But I realized we don't have to be alone, we are only alone if we allow ourselves to be. I have been struggling with a few things lately that had me feeling alone, like I was the only person in the world that could feel this way. Then back to Mondays blog, out of nowhere a person came into my life unexpectedly, leaving footprints, and in a moment just one moment somehow we were able to connect ourselves to a specific thing going on in our lives. God was watching me, knowing I needed some guidance to handle this. As I sat and listened to her speak I was floor boarded, by how I began to feel. Was this anger, Was this sanity, Was this True. NO, It Was Real Life. My Life.. As I listened very carefully to her, I felt a moment of peace. As Tuesday past, I thought a lot about what we had talked about and what she had said. Then this morning as I began to second guess myself, my phone rang, it was her she had invited me to sit with her and talk, at first I was hesitant and thought, it was a perfect time for me, so I accepted. I do not think I have laughed or cried so much at one time in my life. I learned so many things as I listened to her tell me her story. I thought could this be possible, could I not be crazy. At one point I found myself sobbing as she tried to comfort me with a hug. She explained a lot to me and I have gathered a bunch of information. So hopefully I will be able to understand more soon. I should have trusted in myself along time ago and did what my heart and what my gut or instincts were telling me. I should have followed through. Now as I get ready to go on a Journey in Life, I will never again second guess myself on matters that need to be addressed. I will always handle things, knowing that my judgement is probably for the best. Don't let other people or even Doctors, change your mind about things that you know in your heart to be true. Just because you think you are alone on them does not mean you are. In the end it all comes down to YOU.. What YOU can do, First Trust in Your Instincts, Secondly Be Yourself Not a Chameleon. If people can't see the real you, then you will never know who your real friends are. You will never know who you really are. Be true to yourself..